I Could Not Save You My Good Friend. Part 2

Part 2                                       I Could Not Save You My Good Friend

I Now had Uncurled that Tail of mine,
having been told the Truth, 
Relieving me of the Agony lived with, for so much time.

After some research, then being told,
to release all guilty feelings, & for my Strength to Hold,

I then had been informed of the Tragic News,
which made me upset, now i was on a Rampage to find more Clues.

Funeral 1

First of all to let you all know,
that this my friends is not some hype, 
& nor some cheap lie, or a Far fetched Show.

With whatever comes next with at visual replayed,
& before i get there, I Must clear my Throat, without further Delayed,

This is what i have to say to give you all a Logic View,
Describing of the Where, what, when, Why & Who,

I who Lived a Life of Heartache & Grief,
Surely had no intentions to inflict pain on others, 
with I Informing in one short Brief,

I lived my Years Athletic & Number 1,
i would finish first completing all Tracks, 
with my Adrenalin running wild, after hearing the start up Gun.

I Never knew of Drugs or what they were for,
nor even Nescafe, or Coca Cola, 
but used to watch people Crave & insist on More,

Until one day when my dreams had been forced to an Absolute Halt,
with life changing instants character provoked change with a Jolt.

I had been So upset this one last Straw which topped the Ice,
the people who were supposed to love me, forced me into paying their price.

I got mixed up with the Neglected type,
who taught me everything about the wrong & Right,

but i always had a passion for Staying in Control,
with all in Moderation, as i remained eager towards Life, with All my Soul.

I Never revolved Life around Drugs,
but it always seemed, that i Couldn’t evade all the hardcore Thugs,

I made friends with all type,
because i considered everyone equal, feeling All your heartbeats, Now, that’s Hype

What’s for sure is that i’m No Saint,
i’v made many mistakes, with now with my words of Wisdom, you visualize pictures, the One’s that i Paint.

‘Tony’, in all that happened that night,
Still had an attachment on Heroin, 
but for me it was a one off thing, coz i couldn’t Stand the Drug, That’s Right.

I Now Hate the Drug so much more,
as he Finally Lost his Life, 
Finally His Lights Turned Off, & Also the closure of Doors.

Funeral Holy Light Candle lights

I did not know His Weakness at the time,
i answered i could find, this so called Heroin, this ugly Drug, this Grime.

I felt this Grief, This Guilt, This Shame,
but people who new me & what happened, always said the same thing, ‘Your Not To Blame’,

Even a Cop who was a God Parent to Tony’s Child,
mentioned to me, He Chose his Destiny, always being so Wild.

This Cop even Said that when he was found Dead,
(2 months after we had broke Friendship), this Dealer of his, had picked up & Fled.

I Babysit Tony’s Son when he was in Jail,
my left arm in a Cast, it was time to rehabilitate behind the Rail.

Though, that went all Sour,
coz when he got Out, He went Chasing ‘Harry’, every minute, every Hour.

I hadn’t been their after he Got Out,
i was accused of an Affair with his wife when he was in, besides she was at Work, & he surely didn’t know what he was talking about,

He was found in his Car outside of our Local Cemetery Dead,
He Injected Bad Stuff, & that’s why His Dealer Fled.

You Dirty Rotten Basted, you Dirty Prick, taking Advantage of people with your Dirty Trick.

Theirs more to the Story than meets the Eye, as i buried my friend, and i didn’t even get to Say Bye.

But i know your in a place that’s better, R.I.P My Friend,
with an Apology as i write this Letter,

I’m Sorry i was not there with a Mind to Lend,
I’m Sorry I Could Not Save You My Good Friend..! 

Dedicated to my Good Friend Tony, a Victim of Past & Addictions, though,
I who have lived a Dark Path, can tell you one thing;
Most of the Drug users that i have come across, had been the most gentle &
most talented persons.
We are all Gods Creation, & I will not Stop Association when i come across All types of Characters, i can handle myself, this a part of life..
Most Definite of all, I am not afraid of what others say,
knowing yourself!
My Prerogative – Be Natural

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I Could Not Save You My Good Friend

Part 1

                                                I Could Not Save You My Good Friend..

Guardian Angel

Do you Remember, when we met First time at the Bar, You made the Night Glow, You were the Main Star,
Entertaining all the faces well Known, wearing the Crown, your Blazing talents you had Shown.
You were the Head Bar man, whilst serving the drinks, Eliminating Med’s & also the Shrinks,
The Bar over Crowded each & Every night, everybody flying high, as high as the flying Kite,
It Was a place called ‘Down Under’, where every night, there it would Thunder,
with the music that you played from your Heart like ‘Stevie Wonder’.
You were the New Day & Age, You made the Bar tops the Stage,
with the guests in all commotions, rushing in, on all Rage,
Pushing on each other Just to get the first seat, You had to be there to feel the Heat.
I would come round the place, once or twice a week, i was hooked on your charm, exactly what any person would seek,
Good Rhythm , great Vibe, Atmosphere Complete, the best bar in town, no others could Compete.

Pubpubs fun
we would compare & share journeys from our past, we were both equal, never looked at each other, ‘First or Last’.
Moments that we made in the past left a History, we had the crowd left in laughter’s, and for some it was a Mystery.
You would hand me the Mic, just to get me psyched, because anything i did or say, was in favor to be liked.
Motivation was your number one Charm, you played a lot of Rhythm holding bongos in your arms,
Bongy tongy tong, tongy tong, boost my Confidence to sing my song,
In front of the Crowd, feeling loud and Proud,
cause that’s what i wanted to do, you knew just who i was, you knew that somewhere in side of me, belonged a crazy kind of OZ.
Now i was Hooked, popped round Every Single night, i remember even asking you, ‘If this was polite’.
Sure not a prob you said, tonight the drinks are on the House, here drink these shots of the ‘Famous Grouse’.
Damn this feeling was ‘frickin’ Insane, just like ‘Cyprus Hill’, Insane in the Membraine,
A dozen Pints of Beer, & a Spliff of Mary Jane, we chased a bit of Heroin, & Sniffed some Cocaine,

drugs
It was a mix of all the wild and good intention motives, as our Hearts were racing happiness, like all Running Coyotes.
That was a night of the Glorified moment told, But, without my stupid mind knowing, selling my self to the Devil Bold.
It’s not about the drugs, though what happened next had been my next Conviction, but being wild in Nature was my main Addiction.
whilst all negative posers provoking me mad, Overtaking those Obstacles evading the bad, which was the biggest mistake i ending off Sad.
You were my best friend, and although you were Older, you put me in place, word of mouth and your hand on my Shoulder,
you looked up to me too, i felt worthy of being Initiated, For once in my Life as a friend, i felt so Bloody Appreciated.
I Feel So Reckless, that i hadn’t known your Past, & when you asked me to find Heroin, i placed my thoughts last,
‘Dirty Mother Fucking Harry’, Stole my friend once before, nearly turned out his lights, and almost Closed his doors,
Put him in Rehab, because my friend was to weak, His Will was far beyond reach, and not in mind to seek.
Unlike me, different aspects in Mind, i had a conscience not to get hooked, Be Aware & Not Blind.
Being a friend with this Bloke, with a unique talent so Rare, you’d do anything he’d ask of you, you understand me too, and you to, would Really Care,
He never ever told me that he had recently disconnected, from this Drug they call ‘Heroin’,
they gave back to him, this Life his Guardian Angels had Protected.
he seemed So Stronger than your average man, i always had followed him, Coz i knew he had the Best of Plans,
He had opened my eyes to the unknown world, as he Always boost my intelligence, though me the Ungrateful, ‘In my Ass, my Tale Now Curled’.

                                  to be continued, 06/12/14

Dedicated to my long lost friend Tony,

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Blog For Your Life

BLOG FOR YOUR LIFE

Blogging Platform image

Times of Fashion Bringing people together, though, we all seeking a way out…???

A Reason out of the Many, that are years i had Never dreamed to be writing on a Platform, to unknown Strangers, Sharing my thoughts, with indulging on others Adventures.., & something is Terribly Wrong..???

It All started with theBIG BANG‘,
Mysterious how All the ‘Planets’ in Space, they All ‘Hang’,
Planet ‘Earth’ creating Dimension’s of the ‘Unknown’,
With ‘Professors & Scientists’, Still Digging up Bones,
Their’s Still Reasons & Clues we continue to Chase,
Exploring our Planets, to find a New Race,
I should think their’s Enough ‘Life’ here to ‘Learn’,
Still More Bridges to Cross, with deep Healing, ‘To whomever this Concerns‘,
But we ‘All Alone‘ Pursue to Chase our Own Waterfalls,
We’re often caught up in our ‘Own World‘, & ‘Evade‘ all the other Peoples Calls.
If your ‘Selfish‘ & ‘Jealous‘ or ‘Untrained‘,
or ‘You’ couldn’t ‘Care Less‘, or ‘Locked’ in ‘Your Own Spotlight‘, where your Brain had Remained;
Anyways, ‘Don’t think about it, encase of being a Casualty with a Brain Muscle Strained’.
We Don’t need to Burden you with what’s right in front of your Face,
as ‘You‘, ‘The One‘, who had Mocked Others, check it out, Your’e the One in ‘Disgrace‘,
Who’s ‘They’, as they say, ‘Be All You can Be‘, & what do they mean ‘Be All You Can Be’,
It Seems ‘I’ Try Hard, but They can’t give Credit to ‘Me’.
‘It Doesn’t Matter’, I’v Always been ‘Large’ in Mind,
& as i speak for others, it’s because i’v been ‘Blind’, as They pushed me Aside when i was Kind,
But as i sit & write my thoughts, i’l Remember we have all been placed on this Last Resort,
as we Try to Communicate with ‘OUR’ Reports‘;

It’s Called a ‘BLOGGING PLATFORM’,
we all have some work to do, & ‘IF YOU Look Closely’, We’ve dressed ‘Ourselves’ in the ‘Same Uniform‘;
We’ve a Reason to Hope or Believe, we’l get Ourselves out of Strife,
All in Good Time & Until then;
Let’s “BLOG FOR YOUR LIFE”

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‘Sometimes I Wonder’

‘Sometimes I Wonder’

* Cheating Death ‘Several times’ – Then i hear the Church bell chimes,
I’ve Been So many times in Hospital Beds,
though i woke up a little dreamy from all the Meds,
I never Really thanked the Gods Above,
But i know he Knew Of all my Love.
I Cherished Every moment at Presence,
though, forcing in belief i living a Pretense,
Mishaps always show me the way,
the feel of pain is Numb, i hadn’t noticed it go Away.
Soon i had been on my feet again,
knowing in life i had so much to Regain.
Accidents, almost losing my head,
you wouldn’t know looking at me, i was ‘The Walking Dead’.
I Drove my Car Tumbling Upside Down,
to wake Staring at a White Gown,
The Smile on the Face, who would hand me the Crown,
My Guardian mentions with a Frown.
“You are the Angel, that was Sent, to forget any Resent”,
i believe those words were Meant,

Car Crashed                         Guardian Angel

It all had started as a new Born,
with many Hearts and Minds were Torn,
My Mother almost Lost her Life,
which upset my Father, she being his Wife,
Heavily losing Blood, as i ripped her Umbilical cord,
but saved by the strength, of the ‘Lord’,
Further more, the lives were Granted,
Doctors and nurses, excited, reliefs were Chanted.
Though, from that day until the end,
it had been a struggle, for this pain to Mend.

mother & child after birth

‘Sometimes i Wonder’ if Life could be better,
and that is why i write this letter,
To remind myself, it could have been Worse,
that I am a ‘God sent’, & not a Curse,
Labelled a ‘Lifetime’, a “Good for Nothing’,
& in Retaliation & tiredness, Huffing & Puffing,
I Felt so much a ‘Loser’,
being Punched & Kicked, with Harsh Verbal, from the ‘Abuser’.
I was the Naughtiest child, at my young age,
that’s what they said, not allowed out, i felt ‘Locked in A Cage’.
I had so much Talent, though locked up & ‘Abused’,
Branded like an Animal, & also ‘Accused’.
Do this, Don’t do that, Nor make a Sound,
if i’d Disobey, i’d get Thumped to the Ground.

Child Abuse 1 Child Abuse 6 Child Abuse 7 Cover Photo for Advertisement

Nothing Really Matters Anymore, But it Does to Me,
i was forced to be Sad,but i still choose to be ‘Happy’.
So Many untold events in ‘My Life’,
even if i was Innocent, i still end of in ‘Strife’.
I have So much to Learn, from being ‘Good & Kind’,
it seems almost the same as being ‘Stupid & Blind’.
‘Sometimes I Wonder’ my Life to be different in Mind,
Like Magic & Potions together, Combined,
Just to Live a day not knowing the Pain,
Just to know Really, if i’m not Insane.
Yes, I wonder if i hadn’t been Tortured, Abused,
Robbed of the Spotlight, Pushed Aside & Used,
Would i still have been a Creative Person who Cared,
or a Dull & Cruel Crook who never Shared.
Whatever it was, that had ‘Set me Back’,
Helping hands of time to Mend, but with my strength i won’t Slack.
I Will Always know who i am, coz i’m the Man,
The only One who lives my Life, The Only One who Can.
‘I Always Wonder’

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* TWO HEARTS DANCING * – 2GETHER

In the moment when spare time arises, the fact of the matter is, take a break from continuous concentration, expand your mind, off yourself for a few, especially if your in a higher position than others, and you see they are in need of guidance. People know when they are doing it right, but doing it wrong, thoughts to unwind. Opinions Help, a good deed travels along way.., So i choose to Blog a thought, if it may be appealing to you or not, but surely, someone has seen to benefit. Learn something New everyday..

 

It’s taken me so long to see, – that Happiness and Misery,
Growing up, Without that change, – Now it’s Time to Re-arrange.
All the Bad things, i have Learnt, – I don’t use, Coz, i’d get Burnt;
Feeling ‘Love’ and what it’s ‘Worth’, – Giving ‘Life’ is Giving ‘Birth’.
So you can’t tell me i won’t Find, – ‘Some time soon my piece of Mind’,
‘Passionate’, ‘Deep’, ‘Soothing Streak’, for your ‘Loving’, I’m a ‘Freak’,
Flower Blossoms, Hillside Breeze, Aroma of Trance, – If Your ‘Not Here’ – ‘What a Tease’,
Feeling of your presence ‘Near’, Always in my Mind your ‘Here’,
I Shan’t Stop, Until i Find, This Rare Beauty of ‘Your Kind”,
Excited with Anxiety, though, Shamed to an Alt, by ‘Society’,
Words are ‘Spoken’, ‘Promises Broken’, ‘What happened to 1 for All’, OUR ONLY TOKEN?
It’s all ‘Right’, even when ‘Not’, Their’s always a way out, of all Tight Spots.
Sometimes, ‘Peak into a Hidden Place’, you’l find i Occupy that Space,
The Untrained Eye Can’t Recognize the Existence, so, that’s why, I keep my Distance.
A Person for all, ‘So you can Use my Tools’, Build your Dreams,
After you have finished with me, you Throw my Remains.
Time Passes, but you shan’t know, I still Hold the Pain of Grief, ‘I Will Not Show’.
Positive Vibes, ‘Control in Motion’, – I’l let you Drive my Locomotion,
‘Toot’ my ‘Horn’, You are my Light, if i can make you Happy, – Will you Shine ‘Bright’.?
Morning Wake up, Energy, you are my ‘Motivation’, My Get-up and Go,
If Living a life with, is what it means, then, ‘I’ Shall let it ‘Grow’.
Give me the Courage to Carry on, if it’s to know you’l be ‘by my side’,
A Memory to ‘Cherish’ for so long, With Posture, ‘We, Both, Stride’, ‘OUR PRIDE’..!

 

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*Mind Power*

I held you tight, without a fright,
Dancing Our Souls, under the bright Moonlight,
We looked at each others Eyes, Seeing Truth and No Lies,
We Kissed each others Lips, with the ‘Mmmmm’ as replies.
Making Love with Passionate Desire,
Which you became, my Warmth of Fire,
I telling you this, my Blood Pressure Higher,
You turn and say to me, that i’m a Liar.
‘It’s True’ i say, every little bit,
I’m telling you that, ‘I cannot forget it’,
I close my Eyes, I see a Candle Lit,
and there before it, is where you sit;
I just Close my Eyes, and so be it.

Making Love, with Passionate Desire,
which you became my warmth of Fire;
I just Close my Eyes…. and so be it,
No Hurting nobody,………So…..be…it!

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